Pain... What is it?

Pain carries so much negativity just hearing the word, however if one stops just for a second and appreciates their own, then it would mean so much more then what society associates it with. See pain can cause so much anger in us, but pain is actually progress, because you must suffer and order to accept what is to come.

In my own life, my pains and my struggles have made me stronger and on my bad days, its the pain from the past that's motivates me for the pain that is to come in the future. Had it not been for the pain i endured, I don't know if I would be the person that I'am today.

Have you ever heard of a narrative? Well, it's a story or part of a story that one must tell, and use descriptive words, one must paint a picture for the mind. See, we all have a narrative to tell, and we probably could paint a million pictures, but if we keep the canvas white then we have succumb to pain and our future will be dark and cloudy.

See me... I'm going to embrace my pain, so that when it comes again I'm ready for it and I know how to deal with it. A great peacher one told me, "trouble will come no matter what, it's just how you deal with that pain when it comes..."

Just Writing

See someone once said, "in order to be a good writer, you must have experienced things, seen things, and know something." Well when you have all three you become one hell of a writer. I've seen a lot more then my eyes can bare, which is probably why I wear glasses. I've experienced enough to write a book or two, or three, and I've learned enough to school anyone.

I usually only blog when I have something important on my mind, but today I just felt like writing to see exactly what would come to my mind. And... Nothing, I got nothing, but a sad case of writers block. However for some reason I know people will read this, because it's still interesting.

See writing is a skill not everyone has, you have to enjoy it, be able to step outside the box, cause a debate, and paint a mental picture. I love to make people see things my way, or no way at all. If people aren't talking about what you wrote, then you didn't do your job.

Over the last few years I've started writing a novel, which I think is great, and then something hit me recently that said, "write a book of thoughts." So that's what I plan on doing, keeping it real never paid so well.

Dreaming...

The best part about being a kid is the innocence that your brain only knows, for example believing in Santa brought so much anticipation and joy on Christmas that you lose as an adult. For the past few months of my life, I've yearned for that innocence to come back. When I didn't see black or white, and didn't have to experience being a "Black woman" in a racist white man's world, when I had no idea what violence was, and when people cared honestly cared.



You dream of so much as a child, what you want to be, who you want to marry, where you want to live, and how much money you will make. However, when you wake up you don't realize that those dreams might only be just that... Dreams....



My mom use to tell me, "nobody is going to give you anything, you have to work for everything." I know that now and at 23 years old I know that hard work pays off. The problem I'm having is when does it actually pay off? Sometimes you want things to happen in your life that aren't meant for you, but you are blinded by your own dreams so you never realize, that God has something better.



Don't get me wrong for the last few months, all I could think was what can I do to make quick money to pay back the 85,000 I owe in college loans. How will my mother be able to afford $600 a month paying back my loans? Hasn't she done enough? I feel bad, because it's nothing I can do or so I thought. I gave up on just trying to be rich, be on television, or invent the next big creation.



And started to realize, I could make a difference, I'm a writer I can inspire people through words, I can write books, own magazines, I can stop dreaming and make it a reality. I can complain about my innocence being gone, but then I won't be able to appreciate my eyes being opened. I haven't lost my innocence I lost my way, I thought that being somebody meant being famous, but I'm somebody and to a lot of people I'm somebody great!



To my family and friends I made it, I graduated college. It was myself who felt that wasn't enough, because if I settle for just that then my innocence being gone has only made me scared to see the real world for what it's worth. Although, at times I feel unaccomplished, discrimnated against, and forced to be somebody.



I didn't get where I'am following anyone's foot steps because then you have to walk with your head down....



Don't worry see the best thing about dreams are they inspire you, so sometimes I have to sleep. But when I wake up, you better watch out. See I've been fighting all my life, because I was and looked different but I fought and that's what matters. Everyone has a story either you can tell it or keep it a secret and shame the world of finding out how you overcame.



At night I have to face myself in the mirror, and that's it. So if I try and fail then I can look that same face in the mirror and say< "get up girl, you better dust that butt off and keep it moving." I've made it from the bottom and although the top isn't far I can't get comfortable now because the bottom is never that far from the top.

Why?

If you can't be real with yourself, then who can you be real with? As a journalist, it's your job to be as real as possible. In 2010 a lot happened, a lot changed, and history was made yet again. There are several things I want to address. After going over many questions in my head, I decided to ask..

Why was Micheal Vick ripped to shreds for dog-fighting? When Ben Roethlisberger rapped yet another girl again this year, and he sat out two games. In my opinion, Vick took all his wrongs and made them right. He showed the world the type of individuals the 'ghetto" raised... Survivors.

Barack Obama became the 1st black president in history on paper, the 2 nd black president in history. It's honestly not that Obama is doing a bad job, he's just black and that's bad enough. How can you expect a human to fix all the wrongs in one term. You don't, but because he's black this is his only shot.

I can continue to be real right?

Why do we allow our daugther's to believe what Kim Kardashian does is right? Is the only way to stardom literally on the bottom; on your back? How many times will we show her chasing a new athlete?

Why doesn't Pheadra just say that baby isn't her husbands... Enough Said...

Why have we stopped raising money for Haiti and New Orleans, yet we're raising money for PETA? Why are we fighting a war to save another country from what they believe? Who are we to strip someone of their Divine Rights and beliefs, because it doesn't seem right to us? Someone may think what we do in America isn't right, but their not over here bombing us. Why are we fighting to save others, whose going to save us?

Okay, stay with me...

Michael Phelps smoked some weed, never mind the fact that he's won 16 Olympic medals, and totally dominated the Olympics as well. He's young, young people smoke weed. he's human, let him live. He isn't cheating, taking steroids, or abusing women... He's swimming and smoking.

Miley Cyrus... drugs What did you expect' Disney turns sugar into shit every time they get their hands on a child star. it's not being a young celebrity they can't handle. it's the not being able to be young and make mistakes. Kids have to make mistakes to become adults.

Disney stop turning kids out...

Reggie Bush, by the way go get your Heisman Trophy back. Taking gifts has nothing to do with what you did on the field from pure talent. Most athletes have never experienced what stardom brings, if you give someone who started with nothing a gift, he's going to take it. Penalize the people giving the gifts.

16 and Pregnant is not a chance at a reality show, it's a reality check. it shouldn't be flaunted around all over t.v. 16 year old girls sleeping at their parents house with 18 and up guys... it's sad, pitiful, and a shame. Just be real about life after having a baby at 16. Then you show, "Teen Mom". I know a 16 year old girl whose story after having a baby is nothing like what MTV shows.

So let's reward you with stardom and interviews for having a baby at 16.

And why are Terrance and Rosci still hosting 106 and park? BET, I'll wait for an answer...

Oprah honestly, do you like being black?

Kim house wife of Atlanta stop singing please, and dancing. Khandi, how dare you allow her to make a mockery of you and the art.

Nancy Grace and Monique stop yelling at the camera. Monique get a mic, it's hard to watch your show because you yell too damn much, Nancy stop trying people in the court of public opinion.

Wendy Williams is a mess, she reads off her cue cards, doesn't have good speaking skills, and you as viewers embrace and entertain ignorance.

Why do we pay taxes on cars that are paid in full? If I pay my car payment, plus taxes, then when my car becomes paid off, why am I still paying taxes? It's paid for.

Why are teachers allowed to degrade children using words that they can't understand?

When did we become such a violent society' Martin Luther King Jr and Gandhi fought without violence. However, we as a society solve every issue that way. War is the prime example.

As blacks we are not free, we are told we can have one month to celebrate a lifetime of achievements. If BET stands for Black Entertainment Television, why are they becoming MTV Part 2?

Why should someone who doesn't have kids get majority of their check taken? Yes, you get it back, but why should someone who chose not to have kids pay for the government to take care of lazy women who have kids, but don't want to work. The system...

Macy's department store in 2011, stop following black people around your store. racist asses.

Some Call Him Welsh....

"Hardwork beats talent when, talent doesn't work hard." This is the slogan Stefan Welsh has decided to live by in his young life.

Since Welsh can remember he has always been an athlete. He started his career as a football player playing for the Yorktown Patriots, his home town little league team. It was then that his own city realized a talent was among them and was about to break loose.





And breaking loose is exactly what he did. Welsh was born and raised in Newport News, Virginia, he was born to Yolanda Welsh and Troy Swinton.

Under any other circumstance Stefan wouldn't mention his dad, but in a story about your life and a ticket to stardom one must visit their past in order to appreciate their presence.

When asked sports fans often differ whether they believe Welsh was better at football or basketball. Some would say Welsh's chances at stardom are better on the football field as quarter back, others say his point guard skills and jump shot are his key to success. However Welsh took his skills to the basketball court in high school winning back to back State Championships in 2004 and 20005.

He was being heavily recruited and decided to choose Arkansas Razorbacks as his choice to make a career. After the recruiting coach decided to leave Coach John Palfrey came in and single-handily changed basketball at the University of Arkansas. Stefan Welsh stuck it out as long as possible and made some major decisions in his life.

With that said college coaches recurit players and promise them the dream of a lifetime to play Division 1 college basketball and finally land a career in the NBA. What happens when that dream is slightly changed, when the hardworks no longer matters, when popularity beats talents. when true talent and hardwork doesn't even matter.

What happen in the 2010 NBA draft, who were those guys? Can real talent be over looked due to politics? Standing in the mist of the game, I myself can say that some talent does go over looked, but thats the motivation to keep pushing to work that much more harder.

Stefan Welsh has a dream and the only way to wake up is to make that dream a reality. Welsh says, "I won't stop here and nothing will ever stop me from working hard to beat a "talent."

This isn't the last of a hardworking talent, he will prevail... This blog is just the beggining of following true talent on a road only few will ever travel.

"How Can You be The KING with no RING?"

Lebron James announced yesterday at 9 p.m. on ESPN that he would be leaving the Cleveland Cavaliers to play for the Miami Heat next NBA season. The buzz on twitter, facebook, and other social networking sites allowed Ohio natives and fans of Brown to express just how they felt about the move.

Some stated Brown was only doing what he felt to earn himself a ring in the 2011 Playoffs, however others felt James made a selfish decision and turned his back on the very city that raised him and coined him the KING of the game.

However, some will argue that LeBron was never the "King", that in order to earn such a title one must at least have earned a championship. The announcing of James's decision struck sports fans as one of the most memorable moments in sports history. "I want to leave without an emotional leave. I wish that fans of Cleveland will let this be a smooth transition next year while playing their on the other side," said James.

yet, what James didn't know was while making that statement that fans and natives of Cleveland were in the streets burning his jersey and ripping down the "king's signs". One person though made it very clear how they felt about James decision.

Owner of the Cavaliers, Dan Gilbert stated, "As you now know, our former hero, who grew up in the very region that he deserted this evening, is no longer a Cleveland Cavalier.
This was announced with a several day, narcissistic, self-promotional build-up culminating with a national TV special of his "decision" unlike anything ever "witnessed" in the history of sports and probably the history of entertainment," said Gilbert.

Brown though didn't seem to be worried all too much about the fans and support of who helped him along this path of greatness. One can't be mad when a star begins to rise and has to make a decision to better their career. Is James wrong for leaving to win a championship?

That's a question that's answered based solely on ones opinion, and well have one of those. I myself see the NBA as a job, their is no longer the hunger and fight to win. Has the game become a reality show for players to pour out their hearts, or is their one last player who understands just what the game means.

Basketball is James life and he's living it/. Will he get a ring in Miami? Or is it just the mere fact that James is one of the hardest players to play amoung since he is the king? Will the king ever prevail or will Karma show him her ugly face? Basketball season 2011 will be one to remeber and Miami will never be the same.

Celebrities Have Lives Too... Who are you to Judge?

Everytime I turn on my television or read a magazine theirs some gossip or talk about celebrities and the mistakes they made. Ask yourself how many times did you hear about Micheal Jackson donating money, very slim but he was one of the most chartiable artisit to ever live. Forget that how many celebrities do you see honored for what they have done for the industry and chartiable works? Let's just state the obivious; how many African American celebrities do you see in the good light.

Tyger Woods was seen a white man as long as he was doing good in golf, but when he made a mistake and was caught cheating on his wife he had never been more black then ever. Micheal Vick is a icon, a role model, and hope to a city where struggle is something you are acustom to at the age of 7 years old. Vick gives hope to the the children growing up in the "hood", were basketball and football are your ticket out, and if you arent granted talent then you sale drugs, and you only go to college if your parents care about education or want better for to you.

I never said that Vick dog-fighting wasn't bad, but that's how some people make their living in the "hood".Fighting dogs is a way of life, it alaramed rich white folks who praise PETA, but it didn't alaram the black community not because it isn't wrong, but because we know that fighting dogs is the only way some people eat. Now people don't want Vick in the league, well what about the old woman down the street who has 100 cats, or the old man with 7 dogs(all pitbulls), what about the people you see on televsion shows were the police finds a woman mistreating her pets, where's PETA then, where's PETA now that oil has spilled? Where are you PETA, or is the black athlete/celebrity your target?

Are black men/women that are celebrities, are they not suppose to make it? Is a black person having talent alaraming, or are they only good to you when they are winning games and making music? When will someone media specalist or journalist take the side of the famous and hear them out and speak for them. Well that will be me, that's what I will pride myself on. Nancy Grace you will soon see how it feels.
To be continued.......